Well its official I am a fat A again!!!!!!!! I just went to doctor and have gained 6 lbs since April 27th 2009.
Isn't doesn't seem like much but considering I lost down to 159 last year at this time and now I am about 15+ lbs heavy!
Where have I gone wrong well I had to stop exercising cause our business starting slowing down so we had to downsize our staff. We went from 29 employees to 8 employees and someone had to take more of the paperwork load. That being me. Everytime I try to exercise something comes up at the office so my plans get changed. I might as well give up cause I realize that I will always be behind and I will never just get to focus on goals or hobbies cause it will always be over rode by general. Then I heard "if it was for general we won't be where we are or have the things we have" but what I say to that is why does other business owners get to have family days, vacations, great body

Ok so I'm sitting here at the doctors office waiting to be sent back to a exam room. I just heard the doctor say I am running behind! That's just great! So let me start my soap box issue or better yet a pet peeve issue I have!
That is one thing that angers me is waiting in a doctors office. I feel that it is a waste of my time! I have so many other things I could be doing at this very moment. This probably also angers me cause I feel that it just makes me more behind than what I already am. Maybe if I didn't have so many other things to do on a daily basis going to the doctors office and waiting won't tuck me off so bad. But when you start off behind there is no other place to go except farther behind! I want to set by the pool and just enjoy time with my kids and cleaning house and doing laundry and cooking supper! Regular mom things that I feel has been taken from me and handed to off to others! :(

since i have the best husband minus a few minor flaws i got him this for his fathers day gift and our 14 year anniversary of being together (not married)....... it a 2010 chevy camaro rs ss. he is building a 1967 chevy camaro rs ss but he has always wanted one of these since he heard they were going to make them again.
he's worth it and more.

Today has been a busy day! I woke up this morning singing "a planting we will go a planting we will go" and now I tired and hungry!
We landscaped 1 of many areas by our pool today. We have 3 more areas to go but for today one will be enough! It had to be done from scatch and trust me that's harder than just replanting a area that has already been a flower bed before.......it looks great though we are trying to get it finished by the time we have our 4th of July party.
Now we are off to take the kids for pizza and then me and ray are off to the office for our every Sunday catch up from the previous work week. I'm hoping Tuesday we can spend the day at the lake with some of the family! We will see though!

if there is one feeling i have that upsets me the worst is the feeling of being behind.......i don't know why it bothers me so bad but it does.
being behind for some people is a normal everyday occurrence but for me if puts me in a very unhappy place.
when i have that feeling of being behind it effects me in ways i wonder if anybody else sees through my actions, my personality or lack there of.
being behind reminds me that we will never be able to take a vacation without having to come back to a mess, it reminds me that i can't take days off without dreading them later, it reminds me of all the exercise classes i missed, it reminds me of all the moments that i missed with the kids, family,friends, and my husband, of all the suppers i never got to cook or the pleasure of just sitting outside and enjoying the peace of home because of feeling the need to go to the office to get a head start. going to the office and getting a head start doesn't seem to matter cause i still at the end of the week always feel behind.
i wish i didn't always have the feeling of being behind cause then maybe i could get some stuff done at my house. i hate a dirty house, piled up laundry, and to be unorganized, but that is how i feel. i feel lazy and that i am not. i like to mow, clean, do laundry. when all these things are done i feel great inside and for the past few months the main feelings i have is being behind on everything.
i'm not unhappy with my family, friends, job, or life. i just feel like not matter how hard i work i am not getting anywhere.
maybe i'm getting burnt out at the office, but i know everybody relies on me to put things done. i just need time with my family away from the office, so they can't call every 5 seconds cause someone needs something. just one day for someone to say (today is family day). i can bet everything i have this is never gonna happen. but sometimes i wish it would for me.......

a 5th grader no more

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!
to all the 5th graders at northside elementary for passing and heading to middle school this fall. ok so i'm gonna have a 6th grader and a senior man i have a feeling it's gonna be a emotional year for me.

i once heard a quote that is so true.

{friends are the family you pick for yourself}

i met a women in 1997 that has become a dear friend to me, as close as a sister. we have been through good times, bad times and in between times but all the while i have loved her like a sister.

well thursday she came to visit me for a few days. i hadn't seen her for almost 5 years and i thought of her every day.

in i met her in 1997 we were inseparable then she moved back to her hometown of imboden arkansas in 2004. she came to visit once and so started our in between times. there was a misunderstanding and that lead to a long silents of almost 4.5 years. this year we started texting again and it was like nothing ever happened to separate us for those years.

we spent the time we had together for the most part. since it was the last week of school i had so many things going on with the kids and then my sisters wedding so our time was cut short. although we have had hard times i truly believe those are the times that make us realize what we have within our friendship.